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Friday, August 07, 2009

Keep rockin', and keep knockin'
Whether you Louis Vuitton it up or Reebokin'
You see the hate, that they're servin' on a platter
So what we gon' have, dessert or disaster?

Been a while since i last blogged eh? I didnt go to school today. Reasons? tired...stressed...and all those lame excuses. So decided to take 1 day break.. And guess wat? Yeah i had a good sleep but the thing is, im feeling more guilty than usual.

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race
But I already won first place

Anyways, wanna know wat i did at home? I did some revision.. Physics past years obj question. Heheh. Oh btw, i know sayang didnt go school also. No i did not go out with sayang. Both of us stayed at home revising. We just need a day break =) xD. And also, this will be the first and last time im gonna mention my sayang here. Just to let u'll know, i dont really like blogging anything tat gotta do bout sayang. I'm a very private person. LOL! hahah. Hopefully sayang wont think negatively. And hopefully other visitors too. K lets move on...

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did
(As hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinkin' bout our life our house and kids, yeah
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
'Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down
Knocked me down

And oh! maybe u all were thinking why half way blog got lyrics lyrics all wan. Just to let u know, Im addicted to this song. hahah. I dono wats the meaning of this song, but i just like the music. When it comes to songs, i don really hear the lyrics. As long as i feel the music can carry me, it'll carry me. Who cares wat the hell the song means.. I happy can de. xD

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

Hmmm.. Wat to blog ar.. Ok! just thought of something. My mum just mentioned to me earlier. Have u guys watch the movie ''He's just not that into you?''. Whether u have watch or not, i'll just tell u wat i wanna tell.. So, while watching the movie, suddenly there's this scene bout a couple. This couple had been with each other for so long(7 or 8 years ar?), yet they didnt marry each other. The girl was like asking him why dont wanna marry and all? Then if im not mistaken, the guy said tat as long as they both know how they feel towards each other, marriage is not important. Ok, as a species who like to think alot, i had my say on this. But pls do not misunderstand me ya! Either sayang or others. Its just an opinion. Of cuz i would like to marry la. I feel tats the most i can do to make sayang feel secured.

K comeback to my opinion.. I was thinking.. Wat tat guy say is kinda true also but up to a point la. I mean, they've been living with each other for so so so long, shared the same bed, toilet, toothbrush, soap?, toilet paper, towel?, couch, plate, fork, spoon, chili sauce?, almost everything. They know each other very well. Every morning when they wake up, they'll go like ''good morning honey, yesterday night was soooo awesome!'' Something lidet rite? xD. Yeah i mean, the two of them has already act like a married couple , or maybe even more than wat married couple nowadays will do. U get wat i mean? I was just wondering, isnt tat enough for them? And besides, do u think marriage means DEFINITE SECURITY? I wont touch bout this, u see our world and figure it out urself. Im trying to deliver a msg saying tat marriage is not the key to definite security. Its our heart. U marry de, u still can do soemthing behind ur partner wat. Correct not? Its all bout loyalty, sincerity.

I'll do some comparison, and maybe by tat i can make u guys understand wat im trying to say.
Couple A: Married. Have 4 kids. But husband curang/ wife curang.
Couple B: Not married. Have 3 kids. Super loyal to each other.
Get wat i mean ar? Security is not brought by a subject. Its bout how two ppl comprehend with each other. If u dont get it, then just forget it and i'll admit i suck at explaining la k. heheh
But again, lemme stress it again tat i do wanna marry k! Doesnt mean i have this opinion means i dont wanna marry. Its just a free thinking right? heheh *peace*

In the end, tat guy proposed to the girl. It was very sweet. I cried secretly tat time. It was too touching i cant help it. Damnit...

I never thought I'd, hear myself say, ooh, ya'll gon' head
I think I'm gonna kick it wit my girl today, kick it wit my girl today
I used to be commander and chief
Of my pimp ship flyin' high, flyin' high)
Til I met this pretty little missile that shot me out the sky
(Oh shot me out the sky)

Hey, now I'm crashing, don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could back, and make it happen faster
Don't you know I would baby if I could
Miss Independent, ohh, to the fullest, the load never too much
She helpin' me pull it
She shot the bullet that ended that life
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight
Girl sometimes love...

Oh oh! this is my fav part. Ne-yo is so damn good.
So this is wat happen to me. This section of the lyrics, i feel it got connection with me. I used to prioritise on my frens a lot. Till i met sayang, i cant believe how i'm treating my frens now. Its exactly: i never thought i'll hear myself say, you'll go ahead, i think im gonna go wet with my sayang today.. No more dota till early morning with my gay frens.. No more this no more tat.. Well, sayang, dun misunderstand k. I choose it tat way. I never once blame it on you. Cuz to be honest, it'll all my fault. I can balance up everything, but i choose to weight it more on you. Yet, i know my frens will understand. xD. Sorry guys..

Gosh, i write alot de.. Rest a while ya.. cont next time..

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3:45 PM

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Is tat the best way to deal with anger?
Lost of rational thinking..
Say hurtful words..
And the best thing is, didnt even apologize?
As if there's all rights and no faults at all?
Sighhh..
If i say u dun understand, im wrong.
I admit i choose not to go school. But i also had no alternative choice..
I think its really my fault..
Sorry teacher..
I will learn from my mistake.
At least to be a successful person.

U know, sometimes i just really wish to stuck my middle finger to the world..
Then, think back, the world wont even terasa. Who am i? Just a small potato...
Guess i'll revenge by enjoying the world to the fullest...
Its time to be myself again..
Just STFU and do my work.

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5:42 PM

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Report Card? or Regret Card?

K, so my parents wont be taking my report card for me.
Firstly, my parents... they're different.. really different ok?
My dad, i dun think he give a damn on wat teachers have to say about us. If he were to take report card for us, it would be bcuz he's OVER FORCED. By us.. And even if he's there with the teacher, wat he have in his mind is hoping tat the teacher faster stop talking and just give the damn report card. Yes this is true and i know him well. He's my dad.

And my mum.. She's just plain lazy. She always dun want to take our report card. Regarding wat teacher's have to say about us, she's also not interested. She care bout us, she care bout our studies, she care how well do, but she just dont care bout report card day. Few days back, my bro just asked my mum to take his report card. U see, if i were to ask my mum to take for me and she dont wan, the reason is simple. I got a bad mark and she'll lose her face. But my bro, he's different. He's plain smart, hardworking. Im sure his class teacher will praise him well. If my mum were to take for him, im sure she'll feel hell proud. But? She dont want! Cuz she lazy.. she admit to us. Tats my mum for u!

So ppl, dont try thinking tat my parents wont come to take report card cuz we didnt inform our parents bout it or we're scared we'll get screwed up. We'll never get screwed up. Not from my mum and lagi not from my dad. Dun ask me why.. i wanna know why too.. Cuz im taking things for granted tat way. Its like i purposely did badly cuz i know my parents wouldnt care for my results.. Its no ok.. Its no like tat.. its just...........................

Here's my confession.
Im just plain lazy. This i admit. And i realize tat i wont change. I wont be hardworking i know. But i also know tat i'll be less lazy. I'll still be lazy but lessen due to guilt. I have a heart, i have a mind, and i have a soul. I can feel guilt and wrong. But the thing is, im not determined to change. Cuz i like taking things for granted. Tats just me. I know im wrong in this sense. I realized.. But, seems like im not afraid enough to change. Looks like im those stubborn type. And the only last resort to change me entirely is to give a heavy punishment tat i'll regret for life. I hate it tat way. I dont wanna be like tat. I wanna change entirely when i feel its wrong. I wanna change.. But... Im just not determined. I have a weak mindset on this.

Mum and dad, im really sorry i did badly in all the exam. My biggest confession is tat im super lazy. I wont give excuses. I admit im lazy and a weak student. I dont hope for anything, but just forgive me for not doing well in exam. Tat will do. Dont pressure me.. Dun scold me cuz i know tat wont help me. Dont advice me. Dont say anything bout it. Just keep trusting me, keep giving me hope. Cuz i believe tats the best way. If u entrust me with something, then i guess i'll really do something bout it cuz i know im ego. I dun like to betray a trust.

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10:00 PM

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

1-2-3-4

U know pitbull? The guy with addictive songs. Man, i hate his songs. Everytime his song plays on the radio, i was like.. wat the toot is this song? the toot he singing? But the thing is, the song stuck inside my head everytime. And wats the latest song tat stuck in my mind?
Wanna know???
Wanna knowwwww???
Sure wanna know??????????????????
ITS......

one-two-three-four
Uno-do'-tres-cuatro

Chorus
I know you want me (want me)
you know I want cha (want cha)
I know you want me
you know I want cha (want cha)
I know you want me (want me)
you know I want cha (want cha)
I know you want me
You know I want cha (want cha)
one-two-three-four
Uno-do'-tres-cuatro

yeah its pitbull-I know u want me

DAMN! stuck in my head gila gila wei.. especially the part where he says
one-two-three-four
uno-do'-tres-cuatro

so hot..damn..

-1-2-3-4
uno-do-tres-cuatro

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8:28 PM

Sunday, June 14, 2009

I hate this part right here.
The part where i had to accept the fact tat school holiday is gonna over.
The part where im lazying around on holiday..
The part where i said i'll finish up my work and never do last min homework..
The part where i'll be tired after going out whole day..
The part where i'll sleep so early after work and wake up in the midnight thinking nonsense..
What i hate the most...
Is the part...
Where i had to accept the fact.
Cuz the truth hurts.. But lies, hurt even more.
And do u wanna know wats so hurtful?
Yeah, it is tat my smooth hand, is no longer smooth.
Cuz i fly too much on air.
Its very hurting to see it.. with some skin coming off in certain area.. hardened skin at my finger..
Sighhh...

frm past till now at-
3:07 AM

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

M.Y.E

There it goes.. our mid year exam. Chem 1 and 2 will be the opening ceremony. There's been so much stress lately. Im just so lazyyyy. Guess wat? I did study wan k! Just tat at times i dono wat the jai-ho am i studying only. Seriously feel like passing out tomoro. To all upper 6-ers, good luck and all the best in ur exam. Remember! Its just 1 week and u can enjoy already. Have no regrets taking the exam.

And pls ar.. to some jai-ho-ers, pls dun discuss back the paper after exam can or not? Its freaking annoying and disturbing. Especially when u sigh about the mistake tat u've done. Wat done is done. Wat can u get by banging table, hitting ur head, pulling ur face, scolding, grumbling about ur mistakes? U can get back the mark zit? U think teacher can give u some mark for regretting? Fail means fail. Mistakes means mistakes. Just take it, and go. Dont, for jai-ho sake, dont complain about ur mistake. I know u're smart. Have some respect for stupid ppl like me. Just be cool bout it. Take it as u donate some mark away so ppl like me can feel smarter abit. U got it jai-ho-ers?

All the best and good luck again!

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2:12 AM

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Fairytale gone wrong

Honestly, i tot life's like a fairytale. No matter wat we do, we'll shine in the end. I started it with SPM, i admit tat i really did not put much effort on SPM. Cuz i tot life's a fairytale. I just got a feeling, no matter wat i do, i'll shine in the end. And when the results come out, i see no light. It didnt shine at all. So i tot, oh okay, tats just the beginning of my tale.

And then, volleyball story. When i was form 5, i strongly felt tat we'll enter final for sure. Cuz its our last year. This time, its the end of the tale, and in the end of every tale, things will turn good. Guess wat? We got 3rd for it. Its a shittytale.

Then i go decided to move on form 6. Studies, its still the same. End year exam, i got crap marks for evrything. Wat kind of tale im going thru? And then im elected as the ketua rumah sukan. So i see tat im starting to shine. Honestly i tot this was the best fairytale ever. I know it'll be a fairytale, i just know it will be. And best of all, im following the storyline beautifully. I got gold for all events and no doubt, i'll get the tittle i've been wanting for so badly long long time ago. Once again, it never happen. It was only a tale at the beginning.

Worst of all, the recent volleyball game. Seriously this time i tot it'll be a freaking FAIRYTALE for sure. Conclusion? Fairytale doesnt exist. U might think tat at the beginning u'll fall and get up slowly, in the end, u'll shine brightly. Just to let u know, if u think tat way, u'll shine too bright tat u'll blind urself and all u see is darkness. We didnt even enter semi final. We blinded ourself in quarter final.

Remember ppl.. fairytale doesnt exist. No story will end beautifully in the end. No! This is the reality, u wan it to shine, u work for it. U dont just work for it, u gotta really try ur best. No tats not enuff, cuz i really tried my best yet i fail. See how hard it is to achieve a good story?

Its a fairytale gone wrong...

i just cant get over it.. im really disappointed.. i want it tat badly.. i knew im gonna get it.. i just know.. its so close, yet so far away. its really awful. If i tell u im okay, i told the biggest lie ever. cuz its never gonna be okay. i just cant accept the fact. i had enuff disappointment.. i had enuff sadness.. i had enough

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8:50 PM