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Sunday, October 17, 2010

When u're gone

Do me favor. Just play this song while u're reading it. Its meant to be emo.. like real damn emo..
Cuz this post, is dedicated to someone real special to me.
She's not who u think she is...
She's real special.
Like damnnnn real..

Yeah.. its my life..
In my own words i guess

Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you are their armor
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'em

I just couldnt accept the fact. I guess this is what happen when karma turns right around and bites you.
Is it a human nature to appreciate things only when they're gone?
We tend to take things for granted eh?
The only things left for me is nothing, but only memories.
This is the time when it causes u to be damn down.. like real down..
The only time when u start isolating urself and ask urself question.
''have i done not enough?'' ''i tot i took good care of u'' ''i thought this, i thought that''
Damn man! If u're unhappy with me at the first place, then dont be with me!
Why would u wanna give me the temporary happiness and then disappear with all of it?
I thought u like my gentleness? I thought u like my touch?
I thought u like the way i hold u?
I know there's some bad point about me, but thats me! i curse, i swears, i got temper but thats me, YS.
That YS, yeah baby, YS's crazy.
YS made me, but tonight YS writes about baby.

Chorus:
And when im gone, just carry on ,dont mourn, rejoice,
Everytime you hear the sound of my voice,
Just know that,
Im looking down on you smiling,
And i didnt feel a thing,
So baby dont feel a pain,
Just smile back.

I freaking searched the whole car from seats to compartments, to under seats, to trunk and i cant find it.
Then i searched my house from 1st floor to 3rd floor also i cant find it!
I search my whole room like crazy..
I guess, i guess my pencil case is gone..
And im damn sad about it. I dont like changing stuffs that i feel good using.
Its a girlish pencil case but thats the damn thing. Its not bout which gender can use it, its bout how much it can content.
To me, its perfect.
Macam perfect sangat ah.. gitu gitu ah..
Sedih doh dia hilang. Kalo buku hilang bagui juga, tapi ni pencil case.
Insyallah, moga moga aku jumpa balik ah benda tu. Rindu siut..Rindu..
Seriously man, no other pencil case can replace it.
What can i say?
RIP pencil case.. Till death do us apart

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8:20 PM

Friday, April 16, 2010

Stereotypes

It was during a certain course(dont wanna say which course for safety) when i heard a bunch of girls who's sitting in front of me talking bout some interesting stuff. They were talking in chinese when the lecturer was explaining .It distracted my concentration and i decided to revenge! How'd i revenge? Eavesdropping! How'd i eavesdrop? By dropping every 'if' in my sentences. For eg, Marcus will only go to singapore if his dad go. Just drop off the 'if' . K k, sorry! How'd i did it was by leaning my head on the table. Words start coming in my ears and brain starts translating. Just downloaded the translator from google.

Anyways, wat i heard was really interesting. It was right at the timing when i decided to eavesdrop.
X:'' Wow, u really gave it to him?''
A:'' Yeah. Y not?''
X:'' What about the guy from years ago?''
A:''Which wan? The one who lasted 4 years with me?''
X:''Yeah him. Who you gave it to first?''
A:''Oh. I first gave it to the guy who lasted 4 years with me. He didnt ask anything from me before. So i gave it to him during our 3rd year.''
X:''Wow. U give it to him de u still can give to the new guy?''
A:''Yeah. Y not. This is a reward to them''
X:''Seems like u really love them. Its a rare thing tat girls will do. Dont u think its not right?Its a treasure u know''
A:''No. U must know how to reward them. Then only they will treasure u forever. He has done lots of thing for me, and tats the only thing i can reward him with which i'll feel satisfied too.''
X:''Now tat the other guy was gone, did u regretted?''
A:''Not at all. Why should i? Its an appreciation for them. ''
X:''If it was me, i surely had regretted. Maybe its just a different personal thoughts.''

At the beginning i was convinced by A. Maybe its cuz i didnt really write everything she said down la. It was such a complicated story and i was in the middle of important class too. But anyways, i was first convinced by her saying tat the guy has gave us ervything we want, will try his best to give us everything. With her tone of saying tat, i was drowned to her thoughts even more. Conclusion is, she said everything in a very suitable tone just to convince me. Until i heard of X. Yes if it happens to me, i'll regret too u know. What are u talking about girl A? Are u out of ur mind. U can always reward him with other thing. But not ur treasure! I feel sorry for ur future husband man. Tat isnt very nice. Maybe u're just 18, still young and dangerous. But when u grew older, definitely u'll regret. Tats why they say blondes are dumb. You are indeed dumb.

Tat was my thoughts upon listening all of this la.
Then i continued eavesdropping further.

A:''Yeah its a different thinking perhaps. I tried asking some other fren. Some of them say they will, some say definitely not.''
X:''But how did u get the money?''

WHAT?! MONEY?! What u talking about? I then quickly switch on to eavesdrop 120%:paying attention -20%. I must have heard wrongly when i tried to multitask. At 2.5 secs interval, i almost tapped their shoulder asking them to rewind.

A:'' Its from my savings. Once, on my birthday, my dad gave me $1000.''
X:'' Wow! So sweet. U use tat money to buy?''
A:''Yeah. Luckily got discount. Worth it la actually.''

I dono how to continue any futher, but it was actually a Rolex watch she bought for her BF. At this point, i stereotyped again. I condemned X for being fucking kiam siap. And i took back wat i thought of A. U're indeed young and dangerous! Well, i guess everyone will say tat she's a sweet person. From tat point onwards, i started to look at her at a more postive perspective. I paid respect to her.

Well u see, today i had a maths class and our group did some question wrong cuz we assume we know wat that question wants. There's a term which confuses us, but we decided to take it to another meaning, which is actually the opposite of the real meaning. And we paid a high price for tat cuz the answer of tat question is important to the next question. Its a linked answer question, one wrong everything wrong.

Wat im trying to say is, what if i didnt know tat it was a watch? Then everytime i see her, i'll see a foolish girl. She'll never get a postive feedback from me no matter wat. I've learnt not to assume things which im not very clear off anymore.

Critical thinking lessons:
Here's a question for u. I stole this question from my coursemates. They were my besties now and they're totally random and retard. Same gang la ya. One of them questioned all of us. What if ur wife tell u she is not a virgin on the day before ur wedding? How will u react? All of us agree with each other tat we cannot accept the fact.

Now, we see it in the other way around. What makes u think we disagree? Its bcuz we're virgins and we wants equal rights. To my virgin readers, try asking urself this question. Im sure we'll come out with the same answer right? K, lets now see it in the other way around again. I've heard this question being questioned to some other ppl. And it seems like their answer was always this. ''I dont mind cuz tats the guys/girls past''. Based on my interpretation, the real answer is this. ''They dont mind cuz they're not virgins too. They are not qualified or they dont have the rights to judge others.''

Well, this is wat i meant by saying dont assume things tat we are not clear off. Juz cuz they mind, doesnt mean they're a virgins too. They might have different perspective. So if u posted this question to ur fren, dont judge them thru their answers. And another thing is tat, do u think its approriate for ppl to judge their partners thru virginity? Is virginity a very big question?
Ok Ok! Here comes my stereotype readers who think tat im a non virgin too cuz i asked this question. Tats y i said, dont assume things tat u are not clear off. The purpose of me asking this question is bcuz, it seems like during english class, my group keep taking up a topic which i always on the 'against side'. Like today, we stood up for gays.

Stereotypes ppl, i have met lots of them. Are u one?

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12:30 AM

Monday, April 12, 2010

Seriously man, im getting very stressed up in college.
I need to spice some thing up man.
Like creating a band there.
But seriously, i dont think there's any1 who's not nerd enuff to play musical instruments man.
The only musical instrument tat they play is the Organ. Must be.
Why is the entertainment in school much better than in college?
Pls ppl, get more sporty and freaky a bit.
Be more crazyyyyyyy...
No music no life!
There's no way a person cant get smarter in college.
Being surrounded by god and goddess of knowledge.
Surprisingly, i heard some powerful words i used to say before.
'' C'mon, we're normal human beings. Who does homework man?''
I like tat phrase! Tats when im in Form 6 la.
Nabeh, how i wish i could say tat to the whole class too.
But i know, i cant say it anymore..
Instead, i had to be the one to get terasa by those words.
Its so unfair man. I had to do homework like crazy, study in advance to catch up with the subs.
But those ppl, they play a fool, yet they're damn smart.
Its so disappointing when those hardworking ppl are the one scratching head when the lecturer give a challenging question.
And its so insulting how those lazy ass are the one who're like'' C'mon la, so easy. Wat take u so long? This times this plus this get de la''
Wat can i say?
There's an obvious difference btwn the smart and the hardworking.
Smarties are always smart.
Hardworkers are normally stupid ppl striving for their best.
F it man. F it..
Be realistic YS. You are indeed a stupid person trying ur best to be smart.
Just shut up, be more hardworking, dont give up and get ur damn degree quick.
Ur bloody 24 when u finish degree. U can say u're still young, but some1 is getting older.

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9:57 PM

Thursday, April 01, 2010

Life's like that...

Four roads diverged in the woods.. And sorry i could not travel all..
Instead, i gotta travel the 6th road.
So if u're wondering wat will i be pursuing in my degree...
It will be...
Finance and accounts.
Wat?! wat happen to ur engineering?
I tot u want mechatronic, mechnical, electronic engineering? Sound engineering also no prob i thought? tats wat ppl usually tease me.
Then to cover my ego.. I'll tell them..
Oh oh.. I havent say finish ma..
Its actually financial and accounting engineering.
So instead of Mitsubishi motoring, now Matabushi financing la?
It kinda disappoint me when i go onto facebook and seeing disappointing stuff from ppl who i expect them to stick to their ambition.
And even disappoint me when they're the ones who did well in STPM.
I dont feel fair for them. Studying and working so hard for STPM and in the end, even with their results, they're not confident of getting wat they want.
From engineering to business field.
From medicine to cleaning fish tanks..
From science to arts.
Or even if stick to engineering, get some funny funny engineering.
Like financial and accounting engineering. Dude.. i dono wat to say man..

Here's something very contradicting bout me.
Ever since i finish my SPM, my sis has been advicing me to do accounting.
And tat was the day i condemned accounts.
I'll never take accounts man! I'LL NEVER!!!
And now? Im like..''to hell with accounts''
''tonight we dine in accounts!''
''an accounts a day keeps money from flowing away''
''accounts is power''
''accounts potienta est''
Honestly man, the first thing i do after coming back from college, is accounts!
Not tat im forced to do it. BUT!!
Im interested in it!
College starts at 10.30 today but i always reach there before 7.30 cuz my bro college starts at 8.
And u know wat im doing while waiting in the car for the library to open?
Taking out accounts notes and textbook to do.
The lecturer are still in introduction stage, and i already done the exercises in textbook already.
I have some of them calling me a nerd.
Man, i hope they were same class with me in form 6.
Then they'll know how nerd am i.
In other words, im doing fine okay ppl!
Dont worry bout me! I know wat u'll be thinking..
I can sense HJ and WL shooting me again..
''Aiya now beginning only ma. Sure semangat la. After 2 months, same like in form 6 only la.. Sure sleep wan la..''
U'LL WAIT AND SEE HJ!! U WAIT TOO LOONG!!
Bloody helll!!! Im having internal conflict again.. SHUT UP U 2!!!
Cant u just believe in me once?!! ARGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!

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1:51 AM

Monday, March 22, 2010

Hell

Class started today, but hell is not bout college.. It is about.. ulcers!
I've just applied some watermelon paste to my 1st ulcer, which is the minor, less pain wan.
And guess wat.. Its awful. It strikes my brain like crazy..
Now, im calming myself down.
Cuz im about to apply it on the major ulcer, my 2nd ulcer.
Tats where hell begins..
Im starting to imagine if i have some anesthetic drug.
I would like be feelingless for around 5 mins.
Oh god.. pls bless this young child.
Seriously, i feel like crying now.
I dont wanna bare the pain.
Even my gum can feel it.....
Im such a pussy i know. sighhhhhh....
Ok.. here we go. Im gonna publish this post and start applying chemistry, bio and physics to life now.
Man... all the best YS

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10:07 PM

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Ulcers

I think tat frequently visits my mouth are not just sweets, chocolates, lips, tongue but also ulcers.
Mother, it hurts like hell..
Ever since im standard 3, it visits me very frequently already.
U know, ur saliva keep wanna drool down u know? Its just so painful!
Oh yeah, when i tell most of the ppl tat i got ulcers, they'll say exactly the same thing.
Dont kiss so much la..
Hello... When i standard 3 tat time, got nothing to kiss k..
I've tried many oral base ulcers.
From watermelon paste, to bonjela, to dono wat sticky sticky thing..
And none of the above are non-pain.
Everything also pain!
And u know how pain it is or not?
The pain will first begin in ur mouth, as if like soemthing sharp is poking ur ulcer repeatly.
The pain will then travel straight up to ur brain using KTM. Then, tears will come down.
And i'll wanna scream for the whole pain session.
'' aughhhhhhhh!!! MCB!!! argghhhhhhhh!!! F ur grandfather!!! uuuwaaaahhhhhh!!!! fuhh..fuh...fuhh...uncle Fker rarrrhhhhhh!!!!''
MCH, when wanna put tat time, i'll tremble terribly..
I'll be like will it be tat pain again?
Will my tears drop again?
I'll take about 10 secs to calm myself down and 3 secs to plan wat bad words to scream.
Pls forgive me...
Its so pain...
So pls, love me more each and everyday ok?

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9:37 PM

Thursday, March 18, 2010

So today was the beginning of a new era, for me.
My class was about 130+ students i think.
I dont know wat kind of coursemate i'll have, but 1 thing im sure. They dont look like F5ers.
They look like grown up ppl. Got la, some still with the baby face, but most.. Matured already.
Okla, at least i dont have to feel so old there.. phewww..
So today there's this personality profiling.
Its a set of quiz to see wat category u fall in.
It falls under 4 category actually..
And i'll summarize ervything my way.
1.Dominance - U're the boss. U take risk. Ppl godlike u make them doglike. U're the challenger! U're the controller! U like to be on top, even on the bed.'' Say my name..say my name!!!'' ''ahh..YS..ahhh..''
2.Influencial- U're the persuader. U love to interact, u love the crowd.
3.Steadiness- U're stable, u're the supporter. Ppl ask u say yes, u say yes. Wat also ok.
4.Compliance-U're very cautious, very analytical! U hate risk. U calculate the risk first. In my words, u're smart, you're strategist. You're justice!

From the way i classify things also u know which category i fall in de la right?
Yes im under category 3 and 4.
Well, the lecturer seems to classify those 4 classes very equally. She's good with words. Very unhurtful.
But i know wats the truth. the truth is, ppl under my category are more to like.. servants.
We cannot be the head of something. We just love following ppl. We never liked to command ppl. We're too soft. If we run a company, within 2years? no, 2 months? no.. 2 weeks? no.. 2 seconds, just 2 seconds the company will fall apart.
So to those who are willing to spend ur life with me and call me hubby for the rest of ur life, just be informed tat you're considering a husband who is a kuli, servant. A husband who will never be tau keh. If u see in depth, tat means not so high income. If u see more deep, tat means less shopping, not so big home probably a semi C, maybe a toyota, proton, perodua and will never be mercedes, BMW, no LV, no Gucci, no Prada, no Levis. Just PDI, hush pup, topman, lowman, forever 21, TaTaLi and those stuff la ya.

Well.. at least for the rest of my life i'll know tat my wife will be some1 who loves me more than my assets. Not tau keh nvm, at least at home u're the big boss. Not branded nvm, at least u know tat ur wife is made in heaven.
My concept of earning money, is earn my own money. It means, i like earning money and at the same time i could help ppl. Not treating ppl like kuli, not squeeze every blood out of them to make money, not scolding ppl to increase productivity, not scandaling with worker to give them a promotion. So wat if i couldnt make huge money? But at least i can bring huge happiness to ppl around me.
I dont mind earning a little less money if i could please ppl.
But i absolutely cannot accept the concept of '' Aiya they wan say wat let them say la? I got 50k can de la!''

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10:07 PM